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Point of Origin: From the flashback shown in season 8, episode 7, "A Little Slice of Kevin." Castiel and Dean reach the portal out of Purgatory, and Castiel decides to push Dean through instead of following after him. The last thing he'll remember is the portal closing around Dean.
Appearance: Castiel (when he's in his vessel, at least) stands at about 5'11" tall -- and he usually stands rather stiffly, at that. He's got short dark-brown-almost-black hair that has a tendency to curl upward at the front, and piercing blue eyes. He's fair-skinned and usually sports a bit of stubble. He's grown a bit more expressive over time, but he generally has a very neutral expression and a formal bearing to him. When he puts his mind to it, though, his glares would rip someone's head off if they could. His build is average, and he's almost always seen wearing the same outfit (a beige trenchcoat over a rumpled suit and tie).
Background: I have an entire history written up, but it goes through most of the fifth season and I haven't updated it for this canon point, so I'll just give you a wiki link instead.
Personality: Being an angel, Castiel experiences and views the world in an extremely different way when compared to a human. While he's slowly been learning, that doesn't change the fact that for thousands of years, he had very limited contact with Earth and spent all of his time either following orders or waiting for said orders. More than that, as angels are important not for who they are but for what they can do, their emotions are either extremely stunted or nonexistent. This is something that Anna, Castiel's sibling, makes clear when she calls Castiel on how an apology he gives her is not genuine. He can sometimes grasp emotions on a basic level, but he can't necessarily feel them as deeply as a human would. This has been changing, though, mainly due to his exposure to Dean and Sam, the main characters of the show. The fact that he came to actually care for them (in his own way) meant that he was forced to question a lot of the callous orders that he was given by his angelic superiors. Unfortunately, it seems like the negative emotions are the ones he's been able to access more readily. He now knows what it's like to feel abandoned (by God) and betrayed (by Dean), and he feels these emotions surprisingly strongly. However, a lot of the time he can't really define what he's feeling, which can lead to a lot of confusion and uncertainty.
There are many things that Castiel is on very solid footing about, however, and one of those things is loyalty. Originally this was to Heaven, where he always did his best to carry out his orders and be a good, obedient soldier. Even as he found himself filled with doubt, he held on to his duty for a long time, despite both Dean and Anna's attempts to convince him that he should rebel. But when Castiel makes a decision, it's one-hundred percent, and so when he chose to leave Heaven and throw his cards in with Sam and Dean, he kept to it without faltering. As the Winchesters are really his only friends (and he explicitly refers to them as friends), he is very much concerned with their safety and refuses to betray them. This is shown when Anna wants Sam dead, and Castiel tells her that he'll kill her if she gets near him. Even though he and Anna have a history, Castiel has decided that he's on Sam and Dean's side, and so he'll do whatever it takes to protect them. That being said, he does feel guilt and regret for some of the things he's done, such as when he allowed Anna to get captured, and probably also for some of the things he put Sam and Dean through while in Heaven. He just has a difficult time expressing any of that.
A lot of Castiel's expressiveness comes after his rebellion, as he spends more protracted periods of time around humans. He is very obviously nervous and out of sorts when Dean takes him to a strip bar, for instance -- though he doesn't take the stripper's rejection of him too personally. He's very awkward around women, at least if they're trying to come onto him, because sex is very much off of his radar. (He does express embarrassment over being a millenia-year-old virgin, though.) When he's under the effects of Famine, one of the Horsemen of the Apocalypse, he's so taken with hamburgers that he breaks into a grin and says "these make me... very happy." It's one of the happiest he's been outwardly, actually. When he's drunk, he's very disgruntled and short-tempered. He tells Sam that his voice is grating, for instance. In this way, he's been getting a bit more in-touch with his own feelings and desires, but he's usually so stiff that a lot of the time they come across as awkward or out-of-place. He's got a long way to go in that respect.
Castiel's views toward humans in general are pretty different from the normal angel. While a lot of the angels seem to see humans as either a means to an end or as less than scum, Castiel remarks that they're "pieces of art." In fact, even when he was working for Heaven, it seemed clear that he was unhappy with the uncertainty of whose orders he was following and what they were requiring him to do, even if he refused to acknowledge that at first. Very early on, Castiel admits his doubts to Dean, and in many of the scenes where he's passing on Heaven's orders, he seems uncomfortable with what he's doing. He mainly expressed this by physically removing himself from the conversation (standing at the edge of the room while Uriel, his partner, was all gung-ho about exterminating a town) or just staying quiet (he doesn't make a peep while Zachariah, one of his superiors, torments Dean). Anna's humanity caught his eye and intrigued him almost immediately. Castiel is fascinated by humans and willing to learn from them, which is why he's picked up drinking and even swearing (when the situation calls for it, of course) from Dean. On the other hand, he's also been exposed to just how terrible humans can be to each other, so his somewhat rose-tinted view has been cleared up since he's rebelled.
Something humans have taught him (and which he now takes very seriously) is that there is no such thing as fate. Before rebelling, he thought that there was a set path and a reason for everything; believing that the orders came from God made that a simple thing to reconcile in his mind. Witnessing Sam and Dean's attempts to fight against their so-called destinies had made him realize the importance of free will. He became pretty disillusioned about Heaven the moment he realized that his superior had actually planned for the Apocalypse to happen. It's not quite as easy for Castiel to say that the death of millions is okay, not anymore. Now that he's gotten personally acquainted with humans, wiping them off the map like that just isn't acceptable for him.
At the same time, Castiel is extremely practical. He was willing to kill a child by his own hand because the boy was the antichrist and had the potential to cause countless deaths if he was manipulated by the wrong person. Once again, Dean and Sam had to show him that there always has to be a better way. Castiel doesn't completely understand this yet, and that's due to the fact that he's very goal-oriented. Due to living a life that was exclusively about completing tasks and following orders, he always has to have something to focus on or accomplish. More than that, he's very insistent on doing it the right way, and he won't hesitate to argue with Dean and Sam on this point. In fact, he often doesn't even bother to argue; he'll simply warp in, grab them, and set them to work with only a minimal amount of information. A lot of this has to do with the fact that for so long, he was set in the belief that his orders were correct and just. Even after his rebellion, he tends to believe that he knows the right way to go about things, which is why he usually will go ahead with them and not even listen to the alternatives until Sam and Dean force him to. In this way, he can be a grade A jerk about things, and the bluntness doesn't help. Castiel is all about getting things done, which makes him pretty awkward when it comes to things like small talk. He also doesn't understand things that would come easily to a socialized person, such as what counts as proper personal space.
Castiel is very straight-forward. If he wants answers about something, he'll simply ask without any sugarcoating. Before Dean set him straight, he was prepared to go up to a deputy sheriff and ask him where the archangel Raphael was, just like that. He also hardly ever lies, which leads to him being uncomfortably blunt at times. If he thinks there's no hope in a situation, that's exactly what he'll say. He's also not up on pop culture, which leads to a lot of blank stares when Dean starts going on about this or that. (Dean is the king of making references to TV shows/movies/what-have-you.)
Due to his issues with emotions, a lot of the time he can come across as extremely cold. He doesn't really know how to comfort people, and he can also misread someone's words or intentions. Because of this, a lot of the time he'll simply leave a conversation rather than trying to figure out how to respond. A good example of this is when Dean was in an extremely bad spot after finding out that he was the first seal that triggered the Apocalypse. Reduced to tears, Dean told Castiel that he wasn't strong enough to stop the Apocalypse, and Castiel really didn't have a good reply for him. When he gets into a spot like that where he has no good response, he'll often just leave. While he has improved a lot -- he let Dean take him to a strip club and also heard him out when Dean tried to connect with him about their shared daddy issues -- he is very much still in the middle of the learning process when it comes to things like this. He is curious about humans and how they interact with each other, but most of the time he's too busy on what has to be done to really read up.
Some of Castiel's vocabulary is a bit antiquated, a severe example being "I'm the one who gripped you tight and raised you from perdition" -- one of the first things he says to Dean. The way he speaks is probably one of the first things that would stand out about him to someone. As mentioned before, he has picked up a few more colloquial things, though he botches it up from time to time. (An insult he comes up with is "assbutt." No joke.)
Because it's a prerequisite for being a main character on Supernatural, Castiel also has severe daddy issues. He looked up to his Father as the one who would guide him, the one who knew what was truly right. God -- or Castiel's view of him, anyway -- gave him a security where he didn't have to decide for himself what was just and what was unjust. Even after he left Heaven, Castiel assumed that God was out there somewhere. He continued to believe this despite every indication to the contrary, up until he heard from the voice of God himself. Once Castiel realized that God didn't care about what he (or anyone else) was going through, it shook him to the core far beyond anything else -- enough to spur him to go get really, really trashed. He's still dealing with the knowledge that there's really no one out there who might be looking out for him, although the fact that God did bring him back to life gives him certainty in the fact that he's doing the right thing.
The other person who Castiel is attached to is Dean. Dean was his first contact with humans. While he originally spoke to him only because his orders dictated it, Dean ended up teaching him more than Dean probably realizes about what it means to be human, and what it means to have convictions and morals and so forth. Dean is, despite his efforts, very much a heart-on-his-sleeve type of guy, and so Castiel was able to pick up on a lot of his raw emotion. He saw a genuine quality in Dean that spoke to him, and as a result, Dean is probably the most important person to him at this point. It's precisely because of this that Dean's decision to try and say yes to Michael, the archangel (in other words, Dean was giving up his body as a vessel to Michael) hurt so much. As Castiel tells him, he gave up everything for Dean, and to have Dean turn around and give up was a huge slap in the face.
Castiel has also made close friends with Sam, of course. What is interesting about Castiel is that he can be very non-judgmental. Even though Sam was the one who started the Apocalypse in the first place, Castiel doesn't hold a grudge about this. He is very much willing to put people in their place and be completely honest about their faults (he calls Sam an abomination at one point, though it's done in a very matter-of-fact way), but he won't refuse to associate with someone because they did something sinful. He also doesn't seem to judge Dean for the fact that he tortured souls in Hell, for instance. Part of this could be due to the fact that he still has some lingering guilt about his own rebellion. He refers to himself as a "poor example" of an angel at one point, for instance. In fact, due to being nothing more than a soldier who followed orders for so long, Castiel very much judges himself by how helpful he is. Without his powers, he's quick to call himself useless, and that can leave him feeling lost. This is seen both through a future version of him who's almost entirely human, and also through an instance in the current timeline where he becomes powerless.
On the other hand, there are times when Castiel's pride gets away with him, and he ends up doing the exact wrong thing for what he thinks are the right reasons. This causes a whole load of trouble when he ends up opening the door to Purgatory, something he did because he needed the firepower to take out one of his siblings who wanted to start the Apocalypse. Instead of letting Sam and Dean on this and finding another way, he works with a demon and unleashes these powerful creatures called leviathan -- and gets himself killed in the process.
In the aftermath of this whole mess (because Castiel doesn't actually die), he is extremely remorseful and is eager to redeem himself to Dean and Sam. He ends up doing this in perhaps the worst way, as he takes on some mental damage in Sam's mind (that he caused, admittedly), which drives him out of his mind for a while. At the point I've taken him from, he's supposedly at a point where he's going to be working past that because he's been thrust into survival mode, and Montauk won't change that. But the fact still stands that he might not always be all there because of that. Still, he's a reliable ally to have, and at this point he doesn't feel that he deserves much for himself, so sacrificial acts could easily be the name of the game.
Skills/Powers: As an angel, Castiel has a ton of powers, even when stuck in a vessel. Angels often burn out lights and cause static on TVs and radios when they come and go -- and yes, they do teleport. It's unclear whether or not it actually involves flying (there's a wing-flapping noise whenever they warp), but the point is that they can zap from one point to another in a second. That being said, Castiel definitely does have wings, though they're invisible -- it's likely they exist on a different plane of sorts, since they seem to be huge and yet the angels can get through doorways and move around without a problem. He's impervious to knives, bullets, pretty much anything, and he's got inhuman strength. The only thing that can kill an angel is a special knife that only other angels usually have access to. He has some form of telepathy, can make people pass out and exorcise demons/kill monsters with simply a touch, and can warp his voice (he imitates another character over the phone at one point). He also has telekinesis! He can sense things about people, such as what they are (demon, angel, etc.) and if they're from a different time period, or just if... something is off about them in general. He usually doesn't need to eat or sleep or anything, either. As far as skills go, he's shown to be good at fighting both hand-to-hand and with a short sword. As a note, I'm a little unclear on what powers he would be able to keep at Montauk. I am totally open to nixing whatever needs nixing, so please just let me know! Cas is kind of a godmod and I understand that, so just let me know how it should go.
Gear: He'll just have the clothes on his back (his suit, tie, and trenchcoat) and his angel blade, which he can manifest/disperse at will.
Why do you want to play this character in this particular setting? As I mentioned before, Castiel has undergone some supernatural mental damage already, which puts him at something of a disadvantage. I want to see if he'll bounce back and stand strong in face of the danger, or if some of the things that Montauk has to offer will be powerful enough to wear down even on an angel. Castiel is no stranger to monsters, but some of the other themes of the game -- body horror in particular -- would be new to him, and they definitely appeal to me as a player.
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Links: One, two. More threads with him than your hearts could ever desire.
Sample: Sleep wasn't something Castiel ever needed. It was something meant for the living, and whether he truly lived was something to be questioned. He existed, yes, but did he live?
It wasn't the sort of question he would have dwelled on before, but long periods of time spent alone, keeping watch, and the fact that he had damage in his mind straight from Hell, the product of two of his most fearsome siblings, meant that every now and then he started to splinter, and his mind went places he didn't want it to.
He couldn't afford to slip. The others were sleeping further into the building, perhaps even dreaming -- of places calm, and idyllic. Of paradise. Of pastures that none of them would ever see again. But an angel was supposed to be a soldier, the quiet guardian, and so he wasn't allowed the luxury of dreams.
So he wondered, then, as he stared out through the crack in the boarded up window, why it felt like his eyes were heavy with fatigue. Why his limbs ached, and his mouth was rough and dry from thirst. Was he breaking down here? Was his Grace slowly seeping out? Was he becoming something else? Or had the leviathan's influence on him weakened him after all?
He watched as a pack of those dog creatures prowled outside and his body went still, piercing eyes watching their every move. Luckily, they moved on to another part of the city. Either they hadn't caught their scent, or they weren't hungry.
But no, if there was one thing Castiel had learned about this place, it's that the monsters were always hungry.
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freewillCanon: Supernatural
Point of Origin: From the flashback shown in season 8, episode 7, "A Little Slice of Kevin." Castiel and Dean reach the portal out of Purgatory, and Castiel decides to push Dean through instead of following after him. The last thing he'll remember is the portal closing around Dean.
Appearance: Castiel (when he's in his vessel, at least) stands at about 5'11" tall -- and he usually stands rather stiffly, at that. He's got short dark-brown-almost-black hair that has a tendency to curl upward at the front, and piercing blue eyes. He's fair-skinned and usually sports a bit of stubble. He's grown a bit more expressive over time, but he generally has a very neutral expression and a formal bearing to him. When he puts his mind to it, though, his glares would rip someone's head off if they could. His build is average, and he's almost always seen wearing the same outfit (a beige trenchcoat over a rumpled suit and tie).
Background: I have an entire history written up, but it goes through most of the fifth season and I haven't updated it for this canon point, so I'll just give you a wiki link instead.
Personality: Being an angel, Castiel experiences and views the world in an extremely different way when compared to a human. While he's slowly been learning, that doesn't change the fact that for thousands of years, he had very limited contact with Earth and spent all of his time either following orders or waiting for said orders. More than that, as angels are important not for who they are but for what they can do, their emotions are either extremely stunted or nonexistent. This is something that Anna, Castiel's sibling, makes clear when she calls Castiel on how an apology he gives her is not genuine. He can sometimes grasp emotions on a basic level, but he can't necessarily feel them as deeply as a human would. This has been changing, though, mainly due to his exposure to Dean and Sam, the main characters of the show. The fact that he came to actually care for them (in his own way) meant that he was forced to question a lot of the callous orders that he was given by his angelic superiors. Unfortunately, it seems like the negative emotions are the ones he's been able to access more readily. He now knows what it's like to feel abandoned (by God) and betrayed (by Dean), and he feels these emotions surprisingly strongly. However, a lot of the time he can't really define what he's feeling, which can lead to a lot of confusion and uncertainty.
There are many things that Castiel is on very solid footing about, however, and one of those things is loyalty. Originally this was to Heaven, where he always did his best to carry out his orders and be a good, obedient soldier. Even as he found himself filled with doubt, he held on to his duty for a long time, despite both Dean and Anna's attempts to convince him that he should rebel. But when Castiel makes a decision, it's one-hundred percent, and so when he chose to leave Heaven and throw his cards in with Sam and Dean, he kept to it without faltering. As the Winchesters are really his only friends (and he explicitly refers to them as friends), he is very much concerned with their safety and refuses to betray them. This is shown when Anna wants Sam dead, and Castiel tells her that he'll kill her if she gets near him. Even though he and Anna have a history, Castiel has decided that he's on Sam and Dean's side, and so he'll do whatever it takes to protect them. That being said, he does feel guilt and regret for some of the things he's done, such as when he allowed Anna to get captured, and probably also for some of the things he put Sam and Dean through while in Heaven. He just has a difficult time expressing any of that.
A lot of Castiel's expressiveness comes after his rebellion, as he spends more protracted periods of time around humans. He is very obviously nervous and out of sorts when Dean takes him to a strip bar, for instance -- though he doesn't take the stripper's rejection of him too personally. He's very awkward around women, at least if they're trying to come onto him, because sex is very much off of his radar. (He does express embarrassment over being a millenia-year-old virgin, though.) When he's under the effects of Famine, one of the Horsemen of the Apocalypse, he's so taken with hamburgers that he breaks into a grin and says "these make me... very happy." It's one of the happiest he's been outwardly, actually. When he's drunk, he's very disgruntled and short-tempered. He tells Sam that his voice is grating, for instance. In this way, he's been getting a bit more in-touch with his own feelings and desires, but he's usually so stiff that a lot of the time they come across as awkward or out-of-place. He's got a long way to go in that respect.
Castiel's views toward humans in general are pretty different from the normal angel. While a lot of the angels seem to see humans as either a means to an end or as less than scum, Castiel remarks that they're "pieces of art." In fact, even when he was working for Heaven, it seemed clear that he was unhappy with the uncertainty of whose orders he was following and what they were requiring him to do, even if he refused to acknowledge that at first. Very early on, Castiel admits his doubts to Dean, and in many of the scenes where he's passing on Heaven's orders, he seems uncomfortable with what he's doing. He mainly expressed this by physically removing himself from the conversation (standing at the edge of the room while Uriel, his partner, was all gung-ho about exterminating a town) or just staying quiet (he doesn't make a peep while Zachariah, one of his superiors, torments Dean). Anna's humanity caught his eye and intrigued him almost immediately. Castiel is fascinated by humans and willing to learn from them, which is why he's picked up drinking and even swearing (when the situation calls for it, of course) from Dean. On the other hand, he's also been exposed to just how terrible humans can be to each other, so his somewhat rose-tinted view has been cleared up since he's rebelled.
Something humans have taught him (and which he now takes very seriously) is that there is no such thing as fate. Before rebelling, he thought that there was a set path and a reason for everything; believing that the orders came from God made that a simple thing to reconcile in his mind. Witnessing Sam and Dean's attempts to fight against their so-called destinies had made him realize the importance of free will. He became pretty disillusioned about Heaven the moment he realized that his superior had actually planned for the Apocalypse to happen. It's not quite as easy for Castiel to say that the death of millions is okay, not anymore. Now that he's gotten personally acquainted with humans, wiping them off the map like that just isn't acceptable for him.
At the same time, Castiel is extremely practical. He was willing to kill a child by his own hand because the boy was the antichrist and had the potential to cause countless deaths if he was manipulated by the wrong person. Once again, Dean and Sam had to show him that there always has to be a better way. Castiel doesn't completely understand this yet, and that's due to the fact that he's very goal-oriented. Due to living a life that was exclusively about completing tasks and following orders, he always has to have something to focus on or accomplish. More than that, he's very insistent on doing it the right way, and he won't hesitate to argue with Dean and Sam on this point. In fact, he often doesn't even bother to argue; he'll simply warp in, grab them, and set them to work with only a minimal amount of information. A lot of this has to do with the fact that for so long, he was set in the belief that his orders were correct and just. Even after his rebellion, he tends to believe that he knows the right way to go about things, which is why he usually will go ahead with them and not even listen to the alternatives until Sam and Dean force him to. In this way, he can be a grade A jerk about things, and the bluntness doesn't help. Castiel is all about getting things done, which makes him pretty awkward when it comes to things like small talk. He also doesn't understand things that would come easily to a socialized person, such as what counts as proper personal space.
Castiel is very straight-forward. If he wants answers about something, he'll simply ask without any sugarcoating. Before Dean set him straight, he was prepared to go up to a deputy sheriff and ask him where the archangel Raphael was, just like that. He also hardly ever lies, which leads to him being uncomfortably blunt at times. If he thinks there's no hope in a situation, that's exactly what he'll say. He's also not up on pop culture, which leads to a lot of blank stares when Dean starts going on about this or that. (Dean is the king of making references to TV shows/movies/what-have-you.)
Due to his issues with emotions, a lot of the time he can come across as extremely cold. He doesn't really know how to comfort people, and he can also misread someone's words or intentions. Because of this, a lot of the time he'll simply leave a conversation rather than trying to figure out how to respond. A good example of this is when Dean was in an extremely bad spot after finding out that he was the first seal that triggered the Apocalypse. Reduced to tears, Dean told Castiel that he wasn't strong enough to stop the Apocalypse, and Castiel really didn't have a good reply for him. When he gets into a spot like that where he has no good response, he'll often just leave. While he has improved a lot -- he let Dean take him to a strip club and also heard him out when Dean tried to connect with him about their shared daddy issues -- he is very much still in the middle of the learning process when it comes to things like this. He is curious about humans and how they interact with each other, but most of the time he's too busy on what has to be done to really read up.
Some of Castiel's vocabulary is a bit antiquated, a severe example being "I'm the one who gripped you tight and raised you from perdition" -- one of the first things he says to Dean. The way he speaks is probably one of the first things that would stand out about him to someone. As mentioned before, he has picked up a few more colloquial things, though he botches it up from time to time. (An insult he comes up with is "assbutt." No joke.)
Because it's a prerequisite for being a main character on Supernatural, Castiel also has severe daddy issues. He looked up to his Father as the one who would guide him, the one who knew what was truly right. God -- or Castiel's view of him, anyway -- gave him a security where he didn't have to decide for himself what was just and what was unjust. Even after he left Heaven, Castiel assumed that God was out there somewhere. He continued to believe this despite every indication to the contrary, up until he heard from the voice of God himself. Once Castiel realized that God didn't care about what he (or anyone else) was going through, it shook him to the core far beyond anything else -- enough to spur him to go get really, really trashed. He's still dealing with the knowledge that there's really no one out there who might be looking out for him, although the fact that God did bring him back to life gives him certainty in the fact that he's doing the right thing.
The other person who Castiel is attached to is Dean. Dean was his first contact with humans. While he originally spoke to him only because his orders dictated it, Dean ended up teaching him more than Dean probably realizes about what it means to be human, and what it means to have convictions and morals and so forth. Dean is, despite his efforts, very much a heart-on-his-sleeve type of guy, and so Castiel was able to pick up on a lot of his raw emotion. He saw a genuine quality in Dean that spoke to him, and as a result, Dean is probably the most important person to him at this point. It's precisely because of this that Dean's decision to try and say yes to Michael, the archangel (in other words, Dean was giving up his body as a vessel to Michael) hurt so much. As Castiel tells him, he gave up everything for Dean, and to have Dean turn around and give up was a huge slap in the face.
Castiel has also made close friends with Sam, of course. What is interesting about Castiel is that he can be very non-judgmental. Even though Sam was the one who started the Apocalypse in the first place, Castiel doesn't hold a grudge about this. He is very much willing to put people in their place and be completely honest about their faults (he calls Sam an abomination at one point, though it's done in a very matter-of-fact way), but he won't refuse to associate with someone because they did something sinful. He also doesn't seem to judge Dean for the fact that he tortured souls in Hell, for instance. Part of this could be due to the fact that he still has some lingering guilt about his own rebellion. He refers to himself as a "poor example" of an angel at one point, for instance. In fact, due to being nothing more than a soldier who followed orders for so long, Castiel very much judges himself by how helpful he is. Without his powers, he's quick to call himself useless, and that can leave him feeling lost. This is seen both through a future version of him who's almost entirely human, and also through an instance in the current timeline where he becomes powerless.
On the other hand, there are times when Castiel's pride gets away with him, and he ends up doing the exact wrong thing for what he thinks are the right reasons. This causes a whole load of trouble when he ends up opening the door to Purgatory, something he did because he needed the firepower to take out one of his siblings who wanted to start the Apocalypse. Instead of letting Sam and Dean on this and finding another way, he works with a demon and unleashes these powerful creatures called leviathan -- and gets himself killed in the process.
In the aftermath of this whole mess (because Castiel doesn't actually die), he is extremely remorseful and is eager to redeem himself to Dean and Sam. He ends up doing this in perhaps the worst way, as he takes on some mental damage in Sam's mind (that he caused, admittedly), which drives him out of his mind for a while. At the point I've taken him from, he's supposedly at a point where he's going to be working past that because he's been thrust into survival mode, and Montauk won't change that. But the fact still stands that he might not always be all there because of that. Still, he's a reliable ally to have, and at this point he doesn't feel that he deserves much for himself, so sacrificial acts could easily be the name of the game.
Skills/Powers: As an angel, Castiel has a ton of powers, even when stuck in a vessel. Angels often burn out lights and cause static on TVs and radios when they come and go -- and yes, they do teleport. It's unclear whether or not it actually involves flying (there's a wing-flapping noise whenever they warp), but the point is that they can zap from one point to another in a second. That being said, Castiel definitely does have wings, though they're invisible -- it's likely they exist on a different plane of sorts, since they seem to be huge and yet the angels can get through doorways and move around without a problem. He's impervious to knives, bullets, pretty much anything, and he's got inhuman strength. The only thing that can kill an angel is a special knife that only other angels usually have access to. He has some form of telepathy, can make people pass out and exorcise demons/kill monsters with simply a touch, and can warp his voice (he imitates another character over the phone at one point). He also has telekinesis! He can sense things about people, such as what they are (demon, angel, etc.) and if they're from a different time period, or just if... something is off about them in general. He usually doesn't need to eat or sleep or anything, either. As far as skills go, he's shown to be good at fighting both hand-to-hand and with a short sword. As a note, I'm a little unclear on what powers he would be able to keep at Montauk. I am totally open to nixing whatever needs nixing, so please just let me know! Cas is kind of a godmod and I understand that, so just let me know how it should go.
Gear: He'll just have the clothes on his back (his suit, tie, and trenchcoat) and his angel blade, which he can manifest/disperse at will.
Why do you want to play this character in this particular setting? As I mentioned before, Castiel has undergone some supernatural mental damage already, which puts him at something of a disadvantage. I want to see if he'll bounce back and stand strong in face of the danger, or if some of the things that Montauk has to offer will be powerful enough to wear down even on an angel. Castiel is no stranger to monsters, but some of the other themes of the game -- body horror in particular -- would be new to him, and they definitely appeal to me as a player.
Writing Samples:
Links: One, two. More threads with him than your hearts could ever desire.
Sample: Sleep wasn't something Castiel ever needed. It was something meant for the living, and whether he truly lived was something to be questioned. He existed, yes, but did he live?
It wasn't the sort of question he would have dwelled on before, but long periods of time spent alone, keeping watch, and the fact that he had damage in his mind straight from Hell, the product of two of his most fearsome siblings, meant that every now and then he started to splinter, and his mind went places he didn't want it to.
He couldn't afford to slip. The others were sleeping further into the building, perhaps even dreaming -- of places calm, and idyllic. Of paradise. Of pastures that none of them would ever see again. But an angel was supposed to be a soldier, the quiet guardian, and so he wasn't allowed the luxury of dreams.
So he wondered, then, as he stared out through the crack in the boarded up window, why it felt like his eyes were heavy with fatigue. Why his limbs ached, and his mouth was rough and dry from thirst. Was he breaking down here? Was his Grace slowly seeping out? Was he becoming something else? Or had the leviathan's influence on him weakened him after all?
He watched as a pack of those dog creatures prowled outside and his body went still, piercing eyes watching their every move. Luckily, they moved on to another part of the city. Either they hadn't caught their scent, or they weren't hungry.
But no, if there was one thing Castiel had learned about this place, it's that the monsters were always hungry.